Category Archives: Pregnancy

39 WEEKS + BIRTH

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39 WEEKS

(Tuesday November 25 , 2014 to Monday December 1st, 2014)

Week 40 never had the chance to start that I gave birth to my lovely daughter Axel on November 28, 2014 at 3:17am.

On November 27, 2014, I drank 1L of sage infusion (supposed to help induce labor) at the end of the day there was no signs of anything, so I decided to go outside with my husband (my mom was in my house with my 2 other kids. A minute after being in the car, my water broke (5:45pm)! I called the maternity and they told me to come. I packed my things and arrived at the hospital at 6:45pm. The contractions never started… (weird thing, my two other kids the contractions were terrible!!!!)so they had no choices to put me on strong medication to start labor. It was long.. pfff! Few hours later everything went so fast, the pain was the worst pain of my life, worst than the two previous times. In 4 small pushes she was born!!! 🙂 She was 7lbs13oz, 21 1/4 inches long. (My 1st one was 8 pounds, my 2nd one 6lbs7oz)

We stayed at the hospital for 36 hours. So we left on November 29, 3pm.

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Right after her birth I tried to breastfeed her… but it never work.. the pediatrician came and found out that our precious litle girl have a cleft palate. There is no sucking possible , she cannot be breastfeed, cannot drink from a regular nipple (bottle) and cannot have a pacifier.

What is a cleft palate?

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A cleft palate is a congenital deformity caused by abnormal facial development during the early gestation A cleft is a fissure. It is the non-fusion of the body’s natural structures that form before birth. This happens around 45 days of gestation when our face is forming. Hers never closed correctly so in her mouth she have a pig hole and no uvula at all. They don’t really know the causes.

Few days later we went to a well known children’s hospital in Montreal to meet with a team of specialists (including the special plastic surgeon for kids). she will need a surgery (maybe more than one, we will see for that) to close this big hole. It will be around her 1st birthday. Until then, she have to drink from a special nipple, the flow is super strong, like drinking from a sippy cup. Since I can’t breatfeed her, I’m pumping milk multiple times a day to only give her my milk. It’s a lot of work, but I know it’s the best for her. I’m even able to have a very large stash in my huge vertical freezer for when I will stop pumping 🙂 (thank you medela pump in style advanced electrical (double) breastpump! haha) Soon she will turn 2 months and I’m still giving her only 100% breastmilk. I’m happy about it.

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She will see multiples doctors during her first year and after her surgery and until her 16th birthday. Cleft palates can cause many problems including earing problems, language problems… We will do anything for our little girl (like we are doing everything we can for our big girl who is autistic) It’s not easy everyday dealing with all that. She have tons of gastric reflux, so she need to take a special medication to help her with that, she cannot drink like regular babies, she have to be in a semi-vertical position to drink.. at first she had to sleep in an angle, she drink many many times a day in small quatities (I’m tired, hahaha! thank you baby carrier!) she’s a more difficult baby than my two others were. When she will be old enough to eat, it will be an whole new adventure. Babies with a cleft palate cannot eat anything else than super smooth purees until 1 month after their surgeries. When she will eat half of everything will come out of her nose at the same time (it’s happening all the time with milk too). A special nutritionist for kids will help us to deal with all that. It will not be easy to eat in front of her and only be able to give her super smooth purees… my other kids were eating like us at 1 year old.

It will a long journey, it could be way worst than that, I know, but at the end everything will be fine. For us, she’s perfect the way she was born.

Life is giving us children that lfe knows we can handle… I have a super smart and awesome autistic 4 years old girl, a funny 21 months old son and now a 2 months old girl with a cleft palate. they are all three the most precious blessings ever. I believe that even before being born and conceived, the child decide which person will be their mom.. they choose us, we don’t choose them. They chose me as their mom and I will do anything I can to make them happy.

I saw my doctor the other day for my post-natal checkup and I pinned a picture of Axel on their baby wall… when I left I realized that it was the last time ever I would be entering a maternity pregnant or with a baby… if I go back there once again it will be to see a friend or my sister give birth, it will never be me again. I left in peace with our decision (anyway my husband is getting her vasectomy done tomorrow), I left with a big smile on my face and the heart filled with pure love. I now have what I dreamed of, a beautiful family that I love more than anything.

When I wake up I know why I am alive.. it’s to see see the smiles of my kids and to give them love.

Life is good.

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38 WEEKS

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38 WEEKS

(Tuesday November 18 , 2014 to Monday November 24, 2014)

2 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the lenght of a leek

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During week 38, Axel is over the lenght of a leek.

She has a firm grasp, which I’ll soon be able to test when I’ll hold her hand for the first time! Her organs have matured and are ready for life outside the womb.

How I’m Feeling:

feeling ok.. can’t wait to see my doctor at my 39 weeks appointement.. for the past 4 days (now we’re sunday) I have very painful lower back contractions and nausea.. but nothing regular, they can be 45 minutes appart or even 45 seconds appart.. and during night everything stops.. if only it was real labor and not that kind of crap. I’m writing this post and I’m in massive pain… but it’s not regular so I guess it’s still false labor once again. Last evening (nov 22) it was so intense, I almost went to the hospital.. but 3 hours later I was feeling fine… damn it’s annoying!!!! -_-

Other than that, I’m so tired of waiting.. I want my baby girl RIGHT NOW! hahaha! 😀

How I’m Changing:

I find my belly lower and very hard.. I guess there is not much room left for her in there.

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

Still drinking a lot of water and raspberry leaf tea.

This week I had a weird craving, I’m craving like crazy… soda! It doesnt matter what it is, it just need to be sparkly, haha! So weird!

Still don’t have a lot of appetite this week too.

Total Weight Gained:

+17 pounds in 38 weeks


Workouts: 

Snow shoveling and walking (nov 23), but after 40 minutes of walking (with my son), I had so many cramps, life if my body was about to break in two pieces so I came back home.

Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

At my appointement (38 weeks), my doc was kind of mad because I didnt went to the hospital even if Axel wasnt moving for 3 days.. he did an ukltrasound and a special ukltrasound test to hear the blood in the umbilical cord. Everything is perfect, she’s doing wonderful.  Nothing happened to my cervix (well don’t know for now.. but on Nov 18..) Awwww it’s so long and I’m so disapointed.

My next appointement is on November 25 (39 weeks)

Sleep:

Not sleeping very well… It’s so hard to find a way to sleep.. on the back it’s awful, on the left side I hate that, on the right side I kind of squish Axel.. arghhh!!!

Still waking up EVERY hour during the night to go to the bathroom, hahaha!

See you next week!

37 WEEKS

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37 WEEKS

(Tuesday November 11 , 2014 to Monday November 17, 2014)

3 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the lenght of a swiss chard

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During week 37, Axel is now… FULL TERM!!!!!!!

Axel is about the length of a Swiss chard. She is still packing on around half a pound a week.

How I’m Feeling:

I’m feeling fine, I just can’t wait to meet baby Axel. Damn time is not going by very fast, haha!

This week was a busy week!!!  It was the entire family flu vaccines, big boy 18 months vaccines, both of my parents came from Friday to Sunday to spend some time with me and the kids and we had the first real snow fall of the season, hehe.

At my weekly appointement it was still the other doctor (ARGHH!!) but this time I was not in the office for 2 minutes. He was worried because my uterus is very large for the weight gain… finally there is no problems at all, Axel is doing fantastic! With the measurements she was more like a 38 weeks baby than a 37 weeks one.. she was estimated at 7lbs2oz (37weeks).

How I’m Changing:

Not changing much..

I started to have painful contractions.. not much but few. Still bleeding.. like everyday for the past 10 weeks.

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

Still drinking a lot of water and raspberry leaf tea.

Like last week, I dont have a lot of appetite lately and plenty of heartburns… awwwwww! At least the end is near!

Total Weight Gained:

+17 pounds in 37 weeks


Workouts: 

I walked a lot when my parents where there, including one 3 hours walk, hahaha! We were lucky, we went for that walk the day before it started to snow!

I’m doing plenty of birth ball exercices now.

Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

My next appointement is on November 18 (38 weeks)

Sleep:

Like last week, weird and realistic dreams and waking up every hour -_-

See you next week!

36 WEEKS

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36 WEEKS

(Tuesday November 4 , 2014 to Monday November 10, 2014)

4 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the lenght of a romaine lettuce

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During week 36,  Axel is around the size of a head of romaine lettuce. She is still packing the pounds.

She’s shedding most of the downy covering of hair that covered her body as well as the vernix caseosa, the waxy substance that covered and protected her skin during her nine-month amniotic bath. Your baby swallows both of these substances, along with other secretions, resulting in a blackish mixture, called meconium, will form the contents of her first bowel movement.

In only 7 days she will be considered Full-term 😉

How I’m Feeling:

Feeling fine, I was just disapointed because at my appointement it was the other doctor that do pregnancy checkups, mine was taking 2 weeks off… I don’t like him a lot, I was in the office for like 3 minutes max… can’t wait to have my real doctor back!

How I’m Changing:

Not changing much..

I have lower belly pain all the time and it’s kind of annoying, haha, aww joys of pregnancy!

Still having weird bleedings, but they are still because I have a very fragile cervix.

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

Heartburns are still super present, kind of tired of that! Otherwise I’m still eating the same food I was eating all the previous weeks.

The only thing is that I don’t have a lot of appetite lately.

Still drinking plenty of water and my raspberry leaf tea.

Total Weight Gained:

+16 pounds in 36 weeks.


Workouts: 

It’s starting to be a little too cold outside to take super long walks outside with the kids.. damn you weather!!

Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

My next appointement is on November 11 (37 weeks)

Sleep:

I’m having tons of very intense and realistic dreams.. brrr! My nights are still pure crap, I wake up like every hour… awww

Can’t wait to have Axel there with us, at least I’ll be able to sleep better, hahahaha!

See you next week!

35 WEEKS

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35 WEEKS

(Tuesday October 28 , 2014 to Monday November 3 , 2014)

5 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the size of  an honeydew melon

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During week 35, Axel doesn’t have much room to maneuver now that she’s about the size of a honeydew melon.

Her kidneys are fully developed now, and her liver can process some waste products. Most of his basic physical development is now complete. She’ll spend the next few weeks putting on weight.

How I’m Feeling:

I’m feeling fine, I’m glad Halloween is behind us, not that I don’t enjoy it, hehe, it’s more because I didn’t wanted to ruined Halloween for my kids, well I know I will not deliver my baby at 35 weeks.. but I was stressed anyway.

It’s soooooooooooooo longggggggggg!!! If only I could be at 39 weeks already, hahahaha!! The time isnt going fast enough. Well until then, I’m trying to enjoy every second of this last pregnancy, every kick, every everything.. and I’m trying to enjoy the time with my 2 other kids that I love more than anything.

This week I found a super cute plush for Axel.. I bought it so it will be her birth present 🙂

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How I’m Changing:

The weird pain continued at the beginning of the week. I called the hospital but they were not worried about it.. my brain was hurting so much, it was like the worst headache of the century! Thank life it’s over now, well for now. At the end of the week (today) I feel like if my belly was about to drop on the floor… I feel axel’s head sooooooooooo low, it’s crazy. I feel a lot of pressure on the cervix. But I’m happy to be turning 36 weeks tomorrow because it’s the mark where the lungs are done, so even if she was about to be born, she would be fine, yay! Can’t wait to see my doctor tomorrow to talk to him about all that and to see if ”labor” started (by that I mean dilating and stuff, not the actual real intense birth labor)

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

The usual.. fruits, veggies, water, tea..

Chocolate give me the worst heartburn ever!!! -_-

All week long I was thinking about eating date squares.. so I baked a batch today, hahahahaha!

Total Weight Gained:

At the beginning of week 35, I was still at +15,5 pounds.


Workouts: 

A lot of exterior house work (painting an whole balcony) , walking (haha 2 days in a row I did a 2 hours walk.. pfff) and going to the park with the kids

Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

My next appointment is on November 4, 2014 (36 weeks).

Sleep:

I sleep… ok… hahaha! and by ok I mean having to drink water every hour and having to go to the bathroom all the time, hahahaha!

See you next week!

34 WEEKS

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34 WEEKS

(Tuesday October 21 , 2014 to Monday October 27 , 2014)

6 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the size of  a cantaloupe

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During week 34, Axel now weighs about the weight of a cantaloupe.

Her fat layers, which will help regulate her body temperature once she’s born are filling her out, making her rounder. Her skin is also smoother than ever. Her central nervous system is maturing and her lungs are continuing to mature as well.

How I’m Feeling:

Feeling fine (except for the physical part, huuu). I had my 34 weeks appointment at my doctor’s office. He tried for like 10 minutes to catch Axel’s face in 3D.. but now that she’s upside down, she have the face (no longer squish on my placenta) squish on the uterine wall… so the pictures were not perfect. In 2D (regular black and white), we saw her breathe! It was so magical!!!!! I never saw any of my kids do that (in fact it’s the first time I have that many ultrasounds), she was also sucking. I almost cried, hehe. On the last picture you can see her open mouth! To see her makes me forget all the downsides of being pregnant 😉 she totally worth everything.

She’s getting bigger and bigger so there is less room for her inside.. each time she move I feel like an alien, haha

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How I’m Changing:

Not changing much. In my body everything is acting crazy. At the end of the week I was so in pain… it was so weird. I had massive pain behind my lungs, major lower back pain too, it was like contractions but in my lungs.. still don’t know what it is. I have more and more pressure on the cervix..

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

The usual.. I just have MASSIVE heartburn this week.. damn it’s so crazy! It’s so intense that it’s making me vomit.. vomit acid! How fun is that!?! I don’t have a lot of appetite too.

I’m still drinking tons of water and still drinking my raspberry leaf tea.

Total Weight Gained:

To this date I’m at +15,5 pounds.


Workouts: 

A lot of exterior house work.. we have so many leaves to clean.. awwwwwwww! Everything must be ready for winter (cleaning, storing…) , walking and going to the park with the kids each time that it’s not raining or super cold outside.


Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

My next appointment is on November 4, 2014 (36 weeks).

Sleep:

I sleep… ok… hahaha! and by ok I mean having to drink water every hour and having to go to the bathroom all the time, hahahaha!

See you next week!

33 WEEKS

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33 WEEKS

(Tuesday October 14 , 2014 to Monday October 20 , 2014)

7 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the size of  a pineapple

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During week 33, Axel is about 17-17 1/2 inches long. (Like a pineapple)
She’s rapidly losing that wrinkled, alien look and her skeleton is hardening.

How I’m Feeling:

I’m feeling fine. This week I had a big ultrasound, not the kind I have at every appointment, but a big 30 minutes one where they calculate the weight and stuff like that.

Axel is doing great! They told me she was 5 pounds already. She’s in the 73rd percentile. they estimate that she will be around or a little over 8 pounds if she’s born at 40 weeks.  I was glad to hear that everything was perfect. I’m always happy to see her funny chubby face, hehe. She was in a weird position with her foot in front of her face, haha, silly Axel! (Like in the last picture.. you can see an eye with legs in front of her, on the top of the picture you can see toes!)

Other that that, my husband and I went for a little romantic dinner just the two of us. My mom checked our kids for 2 hours.. aww it’s always so much fun to be able just to be between adults, hahaha! And in my life it doesn’t happen a lot, hahaha!

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How I’m Changing:

I don’t think I change that much, I have the smallest baby  bump of all my 3 kids..

the only thing is that my hands are always itching like crazy..

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

Still eating the same. Plenty of fruits and veggies.. drinking water like CRAZY! still drinking my raspberry leaf tea..

Total Weight Gained:

Don’t know, haha! 😀


Workouts: 

Walking a lot, going to the park with the kids each time that we can (so every day except when it’s raining)


Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

My next appointment is on October 21, 2014 (34 weeks).

Sleep:

Damn I’m dreaming about weird and crazy stuff, hahahaha!!!

See you next week!

32 WEEKS

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32 WEEKS

(Tuesday October 7 , 2014 to Monday October 13  , 2014)

8 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the size of a napa cabbage

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During week 32, Axel weighs around 4 pounds (about the size of a Napa cabbage ) and is about 17 inches long, taking a lot of space in the uterus.

She now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair. Her skin is becoming soft and smooth as she plumps up in preparation for birth.

How I’m Feeling:

I’m feeling fine. I would love to see the time go a little faster, haha! Damn it’s so long during the last weeks. Everything is done, her room is done, the paintings for her room are done (I made two for her), her suitcase for the hospital is done.. oh wait I still need to finish mine too! but she could arrive and everything would be super ready for her.

I try to cherish every single moment of that pregnancy since it’s the last one.. every kick remind me of how magical carrying life is.

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How I’m Changing:

Not changing much.. I just find this pregnancy harder (in the end) that the two other pregnancies.. Maybe it’s because it’s the third one in less than 4 years.. Some times I have contractions, but not the braxton hicks type that are painless.. they come with pain.. not super intense, but enough to be super annoying. I’m still bleeding randomly..

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

Yeah! Less heartburn this week! But for how long, hahahahaha!

Still eating the same, I just don’t have a big appetite.

I have to stop myself sometimes otherwise I would eat tons of sugar. What kind of pregnant lady am I.. craving just at the end of the pregnancy?!?!

Total Weight Gained:

At the beginning of the week it was +11.5 pounds.


Workouts: 

The usual, walking, playing with the kids, going to the park..


Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

I saw my doctor on October 7. Everything is doing fine. The bleeding are still caused by a very sensible cervix.. We had an hard time listening to her heart.. she was moving like crazy, hahaha!

I saw her once again during an ultrasound (my doctor does one every single time).

My next appointment is on October 21, 2014 (34 weeks). I will also have a big ultrasound on October 15, 2014 (33 weeks).

Sleep:

My nights are crappy.. I get up every 1h30.. each night!! -_-

See you next week!

31 WEEKS

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31 WEEKS

(Tuesday September 30 , 2014 to Monday October 6  , 2014)

9 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the size of a pineapple

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During week 31, Axel is around 16 1/2 inches long now and weight around 3 1/2 pounds (about the size of a pineapple).

She can turn her head from side to side, and her arms, legs, and body are beginning to plump out as needed fat accumulates underneath her skin. She’s moving.. A LOT!

How I’m Feeling:

I’m feeling fine, like always. this week was intense, hahaha! I did so much canning, I was tired after that. I went to a romantic evening at the restaurant with my husband (the kids were at grandma for few hours) We don’t do that much, but it’s always fun.

I made an hard decision at the end of last week… I decided that our family will be done after Axel. I wanted 4 kids but 3 will be just fine too. I finally decided that because I was thinking about my big girl and the fact that it’s already hard to live in her body (with her autism and stuff) , it’s hard to live with others (not always but she gets annoyed very fast) so having more and more kids was not a wise decision.  Dalie is important for me, more than my own preferences. I will do anything for her to make her life easier. That way, they will never have to share their rooms (they have one each), I will not impose my choices to my kids.. everything will be just fine. At first I was a little sad knowing that it would be my last pregnancy and it’s almost the end.. but after thinking more about it, I will enjoy every minute of it, and when it will be over, it will be the beginning of another chapter in my family’s life. Now we will watch them grow, make big plans and have fun all the 5 of us.  I feel in peace with my decision (my husband understand the reasons and thinks the same)

How I’m Changing:

I feel like a volcano, hahahaha! I’m burning from inside, it’s so intense and very annoying, haha! Other than that, I’m not changing much.. I still had bleeding.. like always! A little more intense this time, but I guess it’s always the same thing.

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

I don’t have a lot of appetite.. I guess it’s because of all these crazy heartburn!!!

Total Weight Gained:

Don’t know 😉


Workouts: 

The usual, walking, playing with the kids, going to the park..


Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

My next appointment is on October 7, I’ll be 32 weeks pregnant.

Sleep:

I wake up like every 1h45/2h during the night, awww!

See you next week!

30 WEEKS

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30 WEEKS

(Tuesday September 23 , 2014 to Monday September 29 , 2014)

10 to go..  🙂

Baby is :

Baby is the size of a cabbage

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During week 30, Axel is about 16 inches long now and weight over 3 pounds (about the size of a large cabbage).

Her eyesight continues to develop, though it’s not very keen; even after she’s born, she’ll keep her eyes closed for a good part of the day. When she does open them, she’ll respond to changes in light but will have 20/400 vision, which means she can only make out objects a few inches from her face. (Normal adult vision is 20/20.)

How I’m Feeling:

I’m feeling fine 🙂 I was very happy to see my little girl once again. I’m so lucky to have a doctor who have the fancy 3D ultrasound machine in his office. I think she kind of look likes her brother Auguste, haha! Can’t wait to confirm that at my next ultrasounds and when she will be born. Awww 10 weeks left!!

How I’m Changing:

Not changing much, I start to feel that the end will come soon.. I have pressure on the cervix and the usual bleeding for no reasons.. My doctor checked me at my appointment and I’m doign great, baby Axel is ok, the placenta is ok.. and I’m not dilating or something like that, so it’s ok.

What I’m Eating/What I’m NOT Eating:

nothing changed except the fact that weird kind of nausea returned… I can’t eat much otherwise I feel like crap.. I have heartburn too.

Total Weight Gained:

Good question, hahahaha! I guess not much since last week!


Workouts: 

Lots of walking outside, playing outside with the kids.


Prenatal Care :

Still taking vitamins, calcium supplements and eating healthy too.

I had an appointment on September 23. (30 weeks). I was so glad to see my little sweetheart once again. She was sleeping the face right into the placenta, hahaha! Everything is doing great.

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Sleep:

I’m sleeping kind of okay.. waking up a lot of time.. always thirsty.. awwww!

See you next week!